BIG FLIGHT DELAYS

I am so spiritually beaten right now that it is almost as if I do not exist. I am being dehumanized and made to not matter so much that I am erased. I am to do countless things to earn rank and merit and then countless more things on top of those, all in the arenas of competition and ambition, all to purposefully swell me in anger and not believe in even my own spirit. I am being stripped from existence, for the things that I am are now made to not matter, and the things that they have made matter, I am certainly not.